first one thinks they are kidding, only to learn that some creatures with an iq between 60 and 80 trash ones life and you hear them get completely silent at a small church in madrid, españa, in front of a small box written "spiritus sancti" on it.
personal:
- i'm (at least partially) still under exernal control (mind and body)
- one of these creatures calls himself „fischer” and told me in 2024 that he would have made me a king, ”king of the fisher” so to say.
- he hallowed me (as a hugendubel) and introduced himself as ruler of the hugendubel.
- super-natural(?) tools let dark creatures enter my mind, capture every thought i have (inl. "pre"-thoughts from a kind of probabiiity cloud?) and let them try to induce new thoughts
- everything mediate (not just communications) is best descripted as completely "chaotic" in the most hostile way possible.
- even feedback gets intercepted. together with letting them "be" my voice(s) and ears, it's impossible to interchange.
- which seem to be important, since i think, thst the voice telling me that abuse is imposslble, was abused and since they interact on my behalf, i hold it possible that them (and me) harass other people (sometimes every smallest move i do seems to provoke acustic reactions by everyone (mostly women) surrounding me.
- they can put hormones directly into my brain and delete short- and middle-term memory
- one of the creatures reacts to a possible objection of mine regarding one of the countless impossibilities he does anyway, that he doesn't care what i'll say, because he can do it, no matter what. in other words: to me he is omnipotent regarding me within the universe "we" are. what does that mean, when he is one of those wanting me dead in the cruelest, most hurtful and longest lasting way possible.
- he is the one holding a comprehensive monitoring of my body, has a radar and tools to locate me, sees my future
- he is the one claiming to have copy-pasted parts of my home universe
- at least one of them is able to torture me remotely and tries to kill me on a regular basis (last attempt dec 18th)